This is my first blog post in many months and the first one during the covid 19 pandemic.  I sometimes feel like I’m walking around in a Stephen King movie; hoping and praying I wake up and this will all be a dream.  Life seems so surreal right now.  This is a time I never thought would happen…heck who did?? We take so many things for granted in life and then…just like that, the world STOPS! It’s totally blowing my mind and I have to be very intentional with my thoughts.  I have to remember who my Savior is and the God I serve. The mind is a terrible thing to waste and when left idle, to roam and wander…fear and desperation can creep in.

When I was first told I had to work from home, I must admit I had mixed emotions.  It’s one thing to work from home and still have the freedom to move about the city and country…but these were different circumstances causing my life to change.  I’ve felt a lack of freedom and personal choice during the covid outbreak.  Not that other people aren’t being affected because we all are…all over the  world to varying degrees, but it really hit me slow and hard…life has changed!  So what do I do?  How do I respond to my new temporary normal and I do mean temporary, LOL?!  More importantly, how do I respond as the child of God I profess to be?

Over the last 3 weeks, I’ve had the pleasure of getting to know God in new ways.  We needed to spend more time together.  We needed to hear each other’s voices…or should I say I needed to hear His voice.  I needed more direction and discipline in my life.  I needed to know His plans for Carmen because I had become too busy with life…not necessarily the life He wanted for me.  So the world STOPPED for me and God to get reacquainted.  In a way that’s pretty AWESOME!! I needed some extra attention and now I have the time to receive it.  I hope I don’t sound selfish or making light of the pandemic but my mind has to believe I’m here, in 2020, at this point in history for a reason.  Only God, my Creator can give me those reasons even in the midst of what seems like unsurmountable crisis.

I believe God knew me before I was formed in my mother’s womb and He knows the plans and purpose for my life now.  He has never stopped drawing me closer to Him even when I was busy with other things…thinking I was serving Him.  Now I have a little more time to put the scriptures to work in my life: “seek ye first the Kingdom of God; your word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path; there are many plans in a man‘s heart, nevertheless the Lord’s counsel, that will stand.”

So my response is “Lord, show me myself and let Your will be done in and through my life for Your glory.”

What is your response to God during this time of shelter in place?  How do you want to remember this time in history, in your life as a child of God?  Are you seeking Him for your call to action….am I?  Will we obey?  Will we GET UP and move?  I pray we do!


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