Giving Up to Gain……….

On this last day of July the 7th month of the year I’ve decided to write about things I have given up or trying to give up to GAIN.  We know the number seven represents completion in Biblical terms.  July is a summer month and also represents vitality, healing, courage, radical change, freedom, boldness and spiritual growth.  I feel like this month has been all of those things and I can’t help but to expect more of the same going forward.

So, it has been on my heart to just write about attributes that I’m giving up or releasing to God.  This release hasn’t been all at once but it’s ongoing in my Christian walk.  The release must occur to GAIN more of Him in my life.

Releasing: death, depression, despair, envy, jealously, strife, bitterness, hatred, stubbornness, emotionalism, poverty mentality, gluttony, laziness, fear, impatience, rage, anger, turmoil, pride, anxiety, unmercifulness, unforgiveness, unclean spirit, impure heart, desperation, spirit of lack, entitlement, control, arrogance, idolatry, divination, prejudices, rationalization of God and His plans, and insecurity.

I’m sure I could name more but these are the things that come to mind right now.  This list sounds awful to me and it is. BUT I’m so glad I have a Savior who still loves me inspite of my me.  He is calling me and helping me to release ALL these things and more to Him so I can completely serve Him.

By releasing and serving Him I’m gaining: love, joy, peace, hope, faithfulness, mercy, grace, humility, a submissive will, dependence on a greater, higher Power (which is less stressful), happiness, a future, life now and in eternity, power, strength, courage, boldness, fearlessness, discipline, being complete and whole, self control, protection, purpose, love love love and more love.

Yes, it seems like my list of releases are greater than the gains.  But when you look at the gains in terms of what they are and their meanings, they clearly outweigh the releases.  The gains are lights…lights of and from God.  We know that light casts out darkness and Jesus is the Light.  So, even though I’m releasing and gaining daily, my gains are what keep me going and give me hope. My gains change my life and heart and give me reason to look up and say, “THANK YOU GOD FOR BEING IN MY LIFE EVERY DAY OF EVERY MONTH!”

Release to God so you can GAIN in HIM!!

Peace and Blessings until next time!


I’ve been told and heard this many times over the last couple years, “you are here for such a time as this.”  Now I knew this was scripture but never really bothered to look it up…don’t judge me, lol.  But the last couple of weeks it has really been on my heart.  I saw the scripture somewhere last week, can’t remember exactly what I was reading, but there those words were again.

Esther 4:14 “For if you remain completely silent at this time, relief and deliverance will arise for the Jews from another place, but you and your father’s house will perish.  Yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?”

I was like WOW!!  I believe God is really trying to tell me something. So I read the book of Esther, again, now with new insight.  It is more evident now to me that I have work to do in the kingdom.  I’m being tasked with being an example and sharing my Christian faith and walk with others…not so comfortable but very necessary.  I’m realizing I can’t look to people when I should be looking to God for the answers.  I’m the vessel He has chosen to work in and through.  I have people attached to my life that need to hear my voice, my testimonies, my deliverances.  Family, friends or strangers, I don’t want my lack of trust and disobedience to cause me to perish or others.  Whatever the call or mantle God gives me I have to accept it and live it.

Queen Esther had to make a decision to trust God no matter the consequences, customs or protocols she would break and even if it cost her life.  She sought God for direction and followed through.  How many of us can say we seek God when faced with a life altering decision or even obey Him after we’ve sought Him for our purpose in life.  Like we seek Him for guidance then get all skerd when He reveals, smh!  Surely if God shows us the plan or even part of the plan He will continue to reveal the next steps as we obey and step out in faith.

If I must be like Queen Esther because I’m at this place and time in history, then so be it.  If I’m the vessel of change for spiritual growth, financial prosperity, living single, etc then GOD give me strength, wisdom, patience and love to carry out my God-given purpose. I want to boldly, fearlessly and unselfishly pour out what God ordains of me to accomplish with my life.  I pray we all align our lives, thoughts, motives and works to match God’s plan.

What is your “for such a time as this” mandate???

Peace and Blessings until next time!!


I believe God is trying to turn me into a true worshipper.  I never understood why people would say praise  and worship God in ALL situations…that sounded totally IMPOSSIBLE to me.  But I have always been drawn to the book of Psalm….that is nothing but total and complete praise and worship to an Almighty God in the good, bad, and ever soooo UGLY situations of life.

When I first gave my life to the Lord 3 years ago I had soooo much trouble focusing especially when I would wake up all hours of the night…..mind just wondering…made me crazy.  So anyway, I asked God to redirect my thoughts, especially during my sleep and  abnormal sleep patterns.  What I noticed was God would drop a song or words to songs in my spirit…immediately upon my eyes opening.  This happened so smoothly I had to stop and think, why am I singing when I should be sleep or when I first wake up from a nap….really anytime.  It really is a wonderful experience.  It has become so common that sometimes I don’t even realize I’m singing in my spirit.  Other times I’m like Lord, where is my song, lolol.

Last week I didn’t realize how much I would need a song.  Every morning I woke up to a song called “I Got that..V.I.C.T.O.R.Y” by Anthony Brown & group therapy…go youtube it…listen closely to the words.  The Holy Spirit only gave me the tune and the word VICTORY but I knew the song but not the artist so I went to youtube and listened.  Then the song came on the radio several times throughout the day.  That song ministered to me during a dark time.  But when I say, God gave me just what I needed in the words of that song to carry me through and is still giving me strength to address some issues and believe in HIs plans.  “Jesus is always with me, He is my HELP, I don’t have to fear because He is on my side…..every time you look up you gonna see me winning.”  That’s POWERFUL!!!

I CAN NOT Live WITHOUT PRAISING AND WORSHIPPING GOD!  He is showing me daily how to look to Him and not situations.  I’m learning (because I asked Him to show me Him) to see God as the Most High God, Creator, Majestic, Ancient of Days, heavenly Father that He is.  That is my worship…trying to know Him for Him and not what He does for me…although I find that almost impossible to do.  But what I’m saying is I want to see God for God and all the love He gives me..undeservingly and unconditional.  I’m soooo grateful for my morning wake up songs…really all day long.  What’s mind-blowing is I may not even be listening to music or have heard the songs in a while when the Holy Spirit brings it to me but it always fits the situation or need.  What a wonderful gift from God to regulate my mind, bring me peace and joy and just down right soothes my spirit.

So, I encourage you to ask God to show you how to worship Him, how to minister to your soul and spirit, how to love on you and encourage your heart daily….you just may be surprised at the gift He gives you….I am…STILL!!

I desire to worship in spirit and truth.

Be Blessed until next time!!

No Words…….

I feel like I have run out of things to talk about…..meaningful things.  Surely I couldn’t be having writers block.  But what I do know is that when your mind is cloudy it affects your mission and purpose.  So how do I clear my mind….get back in God’s presence.  I can’t let the troubles, distractions, hindrances, annoyances or just plain ole life get in the way of me and God.  This is really hard at times….for me anyway.

My morning wake up song today was “Through It All” by Tamela Mann.  It was very reassuring to me especially today.  NO matter what is going on or wrong in my life…God will never leave or forsake me.  His promises are Yea and Amen.  I’m determined to hold on to that thought, song and His promises.  Even when I’ve felt like just throwing my hands up, screaming and just letting everything and everybody GO…His voice stills me.

I’m determined to stand on HIs word, dreams and visions.  I’ve come to realize His Word is action, motion, living…the dreams and visions require action.  Not that I move ahead of His plan but my faith is active.  I’m not supposed to sit idly by and wait.  I’m praying for more direction, seeking direction, asking for direction….because honestly I feel like I’m at my wits end with situations sometimes….JESUS HELP ME TODAY!!

The hardest thing is to wait..patiently wait on God to move in your situations.  Surely God isn’t a tease…showing me bits and pieces…but I must hold fast the confession of my faith without wavering because God is faithful and keeps His promises.  I must wait without murmuring and complaining.  I must seek Him for insight into the dreams and visions and plans for my future.  I must allow Him to constantly cleanse my heart and repent so bitterness doesn’t set in.  But most importantly I MUST TRUST THE MOST HIGH GOD….trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not unto my own understanding; in all my ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct my paths. HMMMMM…

So, I’ll continue this journey of trust, believing and hoping in Him….This is MY TRUTH, This is MY FREEDOM!!