The Passover, 2018……..

This is my last post for March which happens to be the start of Passover and Resurrection Sunday is tomorrow.  I know I’m not Jewish BUT I AM A CHILD OF GOD.  During my church’s prayer call on Friday, my Pastor said something that has stayed with me all weekend.  We all know the story of the Passover, the exodus of the children of Israel out of Egypt and bondage.  God protected them from the death angel and led them to another land, another world….another way of life.  My Pastor also stated that the celebration of Passover is eight days.  What struck me is when she said the number 8 represents new beginnings..which I knew but never in the concept of the Passover.  She went on to say how we as Christians can expect great and new things from God during this time (paraphrased because I can’t remember the exact words but this was my take away).

I’ve been thinking about this over the last 24 hours and I’m just in awe and amazement of God.  He is faithful, loving and devoted to lil ole me.  Someone so undeserving of His grace and mercy but yet He still thinks of me.  As I strive to be obedient to His word, I also can’t help but think of the promises He has made to me and the desires I have before Him.  I don’t want to make His crucifixion and resurrection about me but it kinda is (in my mind).  He died and rose just for me.  For my salvation, for my healing, for my deliverance, for my love and for my future in Him.

I have Great Expectations for new beginnings during this Passover season.  I need God to show His mighty hand in my life but I also need to feel His presence and love like never before.  The realization of what my salvation cost Him is mind-blowing and I don’t know if I really get it sometimes….but I want too.  I’m asking God to continue to clean up my life, fix my heart and thanking Him for His protection–the passovers He has done in my life.  When I look back at my life, I can definitely see many situations where the Lord didn’t allow death or tragedy: mentally, physically or spiritually to land at my door…It PASSED OVER!!  That allowed me to walk into my destiny with Him.  It allows me to have the frame of mind to say Yes to Him.  It allows me to build a relationship with the risen Savior and I’m nothing but grateful.

Tonight, let’s reflect on the situations God has allowed to passover in our lives.  Let’s recognize Him for being the only true and living God.  Let’s thank Him for the Comforter, the Holy Spirit who lives inside us…leading and guiding us.  Let’s praise our risen Savior, Jesus Christ for shedding His blood for our sins that we may have eternal life.  Let’s get to know HIM personally…He’s always waiting and ready!!!

Peace, blessings and HAPPY RESURRECTION SUNDAY!!  May you find and know the Love of God in your LIFE!!

Old Testament Prayers for Today……….

I’ve been trying to keep up with reading my chronological bible plan this year.  It’s challenging to say the least because well I’m not that disciplined.  And truth be told Leviticus, Numbers and Deuteronomy make my brain tired…honestly sometimes I just can’t deal.  But what I can do is listen to those chapters….I just learn to get past the readers voice, hahahaha!!!  I am learning some valuable tools for my walk with God.  It takes all the Holy Spirit to open up my understanding to what I’m reading.  And honestly, sometimes I’m just glossing over things but I noticed some pretty amazing things that I want in my life from reading some of the Old Testament.

I have some bold and dangerous prayers coming out of my reading thus far.  I say this because what I’m about to type in my mind is cray cray but I can’t help it.  When you know a little about God you tend to want more of Him, hence the bold and dangerous prayers.  They are bold and dangerous because they will cause me to completely and totally surrender my will to His.  Here goes:

I want to be obedient and trusting towards God like Noah

I want God to speak to and guide me like Moses

I need the patience and faith of Job

I need my heart to belong to God like David

I need to be teachable, follow my leaders and lead like Joshua

I desire the sight of God like Samuel

I know each of these people had flaws but that’s not the point.  God used them in spite of their flaws because they submitted to Him.  I don’t desire to be ignorant in the things of God….I desire to know Him FULLY!!  I guess I just can’t help myself.  I don’t know how these prayers will manifest or the test and trials they’ll bring but I have to believe God knows best and is in my corner…fighting for me nevertheless.  So although these qualites scare me I still desire them.  I can’t be who God wants me to be without them….I need more than what I have today.

I’m sure as I continue to read these bold and dangerous prayers will increase and manifest.  I’ve heard people say “be careful what you ask God for.”  Well, I’m in the frame of mind to think whether you ask or not somethings will just present themselves as part of God’s plan so why not beat Him to the punch….as if that can really be done hahaha

What are your bold and dangerous prayers for spiritual growth and maturity?? Don’t be skerd….say it, God won’t hurt us!!  I promise.

Peace and Blessings, ALWAYS!!

Rejection, it’s a good thing!…..

I have often thought about rejection in a negative sense.  For instance, me rejecting someone or them rejecting me.  Now, that may not really be a negative if I was doing the rejecting…hahaha.  But, in all seriousness, rejection is a great skill to possess if we look at it from a spiritual perspective.

I read this somewhere: Rejection is not merely turning our back on something, it is turning  toward something better.  If you apply this concept to your spiritual walk, we should always be in rejection mode.  Why, because the enemy and our own evilness is always trying to keep us from the blessings of God.  So, I’m telling you and myself to freely without doubt or shame or hurt REJECT THE NEGATIVITY OF THE ENEMY.  Whatever shape, form or fashion it presents itself, we must reject it to draw closer to God.  Actually, the close we are to God the more equipped we should be to reject stuff.

I’m finding that daily my mind definitely needs renewing.  For me sometimes thoughts can just creep in and before I know it my heart is tied in knots and my mood is foul.  So I have to be diligent in being aware and rejecting thoughts, attitudes and emotions that aren’t causing me to exhibit the fruit of God.

Praying for increased wisdom and discernment from God helps us to recognize the tricks of the enemy.  I’m mindful, most times of what I allow into my eye gaits but it’s very challenging controlling my ear gaits.  I believe that’s one of my most heartfelt cries to God is control my ear gaits.  What I hear really sets me off at times and this honestly is a struggle for me.  But I believe because I recognize the issues and can speak to it now I’m allowing God to fix the problem because I realize I can’t.  In realizing my limitations God can increase in my life…that’s what we are striving for, RIGHT?  For God to be great and not us…hmmmm.

I will continue to reject fear, self-doubt, wavering faith, man’s opinions and limitations on my walk, worry, strife, bitterness, unforgiveness, competition and pride.

I know that I’m a child of God, blessed by Him for His work, strengthened by Him, led by Him and loved by Him.  He will grow and equip me for whatever He has purposed my life to be so I must without hesitation reject anything that comes against that knowledge.

So, what do you need to reject to keep you in or propel you towards God’s plan for your life?  The good news is that you have the power of God to help you REJECT IT!!

Peace and blessings until next time!!


The shifting continues in my life as I connect more and more with God.  Three years ago, I was constantly asking God to show me my life’s purpose.  What I realized is the more I read His Word, it speaks to me.  I attended multiple conferences that taught me how to seek God thru prayer and fasting and surrounding myself with Christians especially wise women of God.  These women look after me, love me, pray for and with me, teach me, correct me and most importantly let me be me.  I truly believe that when God places people in your life, it’s to help you on the journey of being a better Christian.

The shift has occurred from seeking purpose to fulfilling purpose.  I’ve noticed that now the conferences I attend are to teach me how to: how to be obedient to God’s word, how to work in ministry, how to be bold in God’s work, how to be confident and godly-proud of the person He is transforming me into…a woman of God (WOG)!!  Never thought I would be called by that name.

We are dying and growing daily…dying to the flesh and growing in the knowledge of God.  My Mom and Auntee Denise (Neisy) used to say “living for God gets sweeter and sweeter.”  I didn’t understand that until now.  The more He changes me the more I realize I need to change.  I try not to focus on the negative and beat myself up because if God breaks me, He is doing it with love and for a greater purpose.  Now all I have to do is be patient in the process.  Sometimes I think “OMG, more change…how wicked am I??”  Nevertheless, I’m loving the new and improved Carmen.  God is searching and changing my heart ALL at the same time….SHIFTING.


SHIFTING, Part I ……….

Hello My Cyberloves, it’s been a minute but I’m baaaack!!  I’m so glad it’s daylight savings time I feel some energy bursts even though I feel a little sleep deprived.  But never the less, blogging is what I do so here goes something…haha!

I feel things shifting in my Christian walk.  My prayers are focused less on asking God for stuff but more on trying to know Him in a more intimate personal way.  Sometimes it’s hard for me to distinguish my praise and worship from thanking Him for what He has done or given me to just focusing on His deity.  It seems it’s a very fine line in my mind.  But as I spend my quiet time with my Savior, I try to pray His various names that mean something to me.  For instance, being delivered from depression I know first hand Jehovah Shalom.  When I was diagnosed with breast cancer and went through treatment, I was introduced to Jehovah Rophe.  As God teaches me how to be a good steward over the resources He provides, Jehovah Jireh is present.  Now what I learned is Jehovah Jireh doesn’t just pertain to money, IT’S, car, health, mental stability, relationships, thrive and desire to work in ministry, knowledge, wisdom and His presence…I could go on but you get my point.  El Roi sees and cares about me and everything pertaining to me.  Now I’m learning who Jehovah Nissi is to me.  Going before me and fighting battles triumphantly on my behalf.  My greatest prayer is that God be Adonai in my life…RULER AND MASTER OVER EVERYTHING PERTAINING TO ME, LEADING AND GUIDING ME INTO HIS WILL.

I will continue to pray, praise and worship the God of my Salvation who is the Master of inner healing..making me beautiful from the inside out.  Now that definitely takes divine intervention..hahaha!!

Peace, Love and Hope to You All!!