Remembering My Momma………….

It’s been almost 10 years since my Mom went to be with the Lord.  I never imagined my life without her with me….I just couldn’t or wouldn’t.  I definitely didn’t think God would do that to ME!!  Well, He did and through much pain and healing, I’m still here…HER SEED…saved by God’s grace and trying to live for Him like she tried to demonstrate with her life.

Last week I was feeling like sometimes I can’t remember her ways or hear her voice. I’ve had this feeling many times.  I’ve read books or looked at TV programs and it seems someone is always talking about the words of wisdom or catchy sayings their Mothers taught them.  But I was having a really hard time recalling things about my Mom.  But how many people know the Holy Spirit will always come through when you need Him the most.  He brought back my Mom’s personality and mannerisms to me.  You see, Delores was a woman of few words.  She was more of a lead by example type person…more action less talk.  She loved her children and grandchildren….like don’t mess with her babies, LOLOL.

My Mother gave her life to God at an early age, probably late twenties early thirties.  So I don’t have a lot of memories of her life before Christ.  The ones that are most vivid to me are illness and depression after the death of her sister, Martha (also one of my fav aunts).  This led to her getting saved and God delivered her.  I remember family members and sometimes even my Mom joking about her temper before she got saved, like she would snap on you as the young people say now, LOL.  But that’s not an overwhelming memory I have of her although I could see it, haha.  I would often get upset with her when she didn’t respond to people who I felt said something inappropriate to her or didn’t treat her right…If you had a problem with my Mom I automatically had one with you…For REAL but I’m getting delivered, even to this day.

But through all this reminiscing, the Holy Spirit let me see the meekness my Mom was exhibiting.  She was showing me Christ-like characteristics and I didn’t even realize it until last week.  She wasn’t weak or backing down.  She was showing me how you bridle your tongue and let God fight for you, she was showing me how sometimes words are not needed, she was showing me how people can think whatever but it’s what God says and thinks that really matters, she showed me how a praying life got you through ALL times, she was showing me how God works on your heart, allowing you to forgive and love people and she showed me most of all nothing beats living for GOD!!  I now understand the saying “it gets sweeter and sweeter living for God.”  Who KNEW..SHE DID??!!

I know her main prayer for her children and grandchildren was that we give our lives to the Lord.  I’m continuing those prayers.  I know there are prayers stored up in heaven and they didn’t just start with Delores and will not stop with her or me.  We will be a saved nation and the blessings of God will manifest in her seeds.

When she said, “your salvation is a personal one” THAT’S THE WHOLE TRUTH!!  Her walk and life were her’s and my walk and life are mines.  BUT I’m glad her life taught me some thangs.  All the words of wisdom mean nothing if the life lessons and actions aren’t accompanied by them.  I thank God for HIs divine revelations that enlighten, comfort, strengthen and guide me AND it started with His servant Delores: MY MOMMA, MY LOVE, MY HEARTBEAT, MY GODLY EARTHEN EXAMPLE!!





STILL speaking my truth tonight so here is a follow-up to last nights post…it’s a short one, haha.

Hebrews 12:6-7 says “whom the Lord loves He chastens.  And scourges every son whom He receives.  If you endure chastening, God deals with you as with sons; for what son is there whom a father does not chasten?”

Hebrews 4:12-13 says “For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.  And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but all things are naked and open to the eyes of Him to whom we must give account.”

This is sooooo me right now.  God made a believer out of me, AGAIN!! I’ve read these scriptures many many times and even heard them a time or two but NEVER QUITE LIKE THIS have they resonated in my spirit!!!  Yes, the Word pricked my heart when I got saved and on several occasions since…I’m rolling my eyes at myself right here….but I guess I thought I was exempt from further prickings..LOLOLOL….NOPE!!  We don’t know the depths of darkness in our hearts.  It takes the Master-CREATOR to reveal.  It’s up to us to accept what we are shown, allow the problem to be fixed and move on…can’t wallow in the hurt or why me mentality.

These scriptures have hit me a different kinda way.  I think I felt my marrow splitting last week..for real..lolol. But like I said yesterday, God wants a broken heart humbly submitted to Him so He can pour into an open vessel to move about the Kingdom.  I’m so glad His chastening is done with love.  If He loves me like this then what kinda love am I suppose to show myself and HIs people.  HIs people in the Body of Christ and out.  I can’t just love my fellow Christians and the new converts.  I have to love people all day every day no matter their beliefs, race, color or creed, what they say or don’t say to me or how I’m treated.  Things we think are little are really big offenses to God.  Now you know I need the Father’s help for this commandment.  IJS

According to Jeremiah 31:3-4 “The Lord has appeared of old to me, saying: “Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you.  Again I will build you, and you shall be rebuilt……”  How AWESOME is that…that’s some kinda crazy heavenly love…ALL FOR ME!!  So He is rebuilding me to LOVE like He says LOVE.  This is going to be an interesting journey but I know it’s worthwhile.

So while I’m flabbergasted at my level of craziness and sin (known and unknown) I’m more wonderfully amazed at how smooth THE TRINITY works on my behalf….drawing me constantly to them, making and molding me, leading and guiding me, correcting me, redeeming, restoring and releasing me.  God is peeling back all the layers until one day I obtain my heavenly reward…everlasting life with Him.  But while this process is going on, I’m not idle.  I’m working my purpose according to His purpose.

Yes, this blog is longer than I expected but what can I say…I must be long-winded…blame the Holy Spirit..haha

Peace and Blessings My fellow Onions!!!


So, I was once told “You’re like an onion…many layers to get to know you.”  I really don’t know how I felt about the statement although I know what the person was saying.  We are complex human beings with layers, barriers, masks and walls based on our life experiences.  Whenever we meet people and form relationships, we are exposed to their layers…whether just the outside, the first few layers or we are allowed to go on a deeper journey of self revelation, bonding and healing.

That’s the amazing thing about my relationship with God.  He knows all the layers already and exposes them to me as I seek Him. It amazes me how being obedient to my Savior prepares me for purpose and matures me spiritually.  This first month of 2018 has not stopped my inner healing.  Sometimes what God exposes is good and sometimes it’s just down right ugly and stinky….like an onion.  But the glorious thing about Him, He does the peeling and exposing in love with grace and mercy.  I just had to come with an open broken heart.  I must admit I needed a major heart transplant…some hard truths I had to face.  They really weren’t a surprise but I guess I was ready to face the music and GET RIGHT at this point in time.  When you know you have purpose, it’s hard to stay the same…although I want to but knowing I can’t.  People say change is good.  I mostly agree unless it involves me directly..haha…it’s hard work, frustrating and emotional.  Change can cause sleepless nights, temper tantrums and crying fits…trust me I know.  Once I get OVER myself, get  OUT my feelings, CONFESS the problems (repent) and THANK Him for revelation and loving me then I can hear God clearly for next steps and trust that He knows what’s best for me.  He really does but it’s a process.

I’ll continue to allow God to peel back the stinky layers of my life and heart, breaking down the barriers and walls I have put up and allowing the healing to occur in my life so I can reach my full potential, be an asset to the Kingdom, help others become assets and He gets the glory.

No matter how much an onion burns your eyes and makes you cry, we still use them.  We know the goodness it has to offer.  With the proper seasonings it turns your culinary masterpieces into something flavorful.  God peels back my layers and layers and layers and replaces them with love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control..transforming me into something flavorful and pleasing….HIS CHILD…ready for work!!


Nobody said the road would be easy……

You know the song…but I don’t believe He brought me this far to leave me.

I know you have heard it before BUT this really is my shortest blog….it’s easy seeking God for His purpose for our lives…we probably know anyway WE/I just want 10,000 confirmations..haha.  The true test, for me anyway, is doing what the purpose calls for; THE WORK, BEING VISIBLE BUT INVISIBLE….anybody feel me on this one?

That’s all…..peace out and many blessing to you, TRAILBLAZERS IN 2018!!


Hello again my cyberpeeps!! Before we get too far into 2018 I have something to get off my chest because it’s heavy on my heart.  I know this will bless you (and me) as you continue to seek God for purpose.

Whoever coined the phrase “church hurt” must be RICH!! Back in the day, you just saw people leaving churches for whatever one ever put a name on least I never knew one.  People just went to another church but did any real healing occur.  Some people even today “church hopping” as it’s called.  Well, my question is when does the healing take place?  If you’re constantly going from church to church when do you look within to see if it’s YOU contributing to the problem.

Let’s face it, church hurt is real and all of us have probably experienced it in some form or fashion in our lives…whether as a sinner or Christian.  BUT, and let me make this clear…WE MUST STOP USING IT AS AN EXCUSE NOT TO SERVE GOD!!!  Ultimately we have a decision to make..keep looking at man or look to God.  Take man off the pedestal and recognize who sits on the THRONE..GOD ALONE.  Our souls are at stake here people!!

So we must ask God to strengthen and toughen us up with His love.  We are commanded to have no other god before Him and love our neighbors as ourselves.  We are told to pray for wisdom and insight to handle life problems including relationships.  Pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you..YES, even in the church…no one is exempt from inappropriate behavior.  But the thing is, at some point we MUST hold each other accountable and pray against the enemies attacks on the BODY OF CHRIST!!!

We all have been the one either giving or receiving the hurt…What part are you going to play in the resolution??  Sometimes it’s appropriate to leave a church but I would encourage everyone reading this blog to ask the Holy Spirit to search your hearts, heal the wounds, and pray for the offender(s).  Maybe where you are planted is for a reason, your purpose, so seek the wisdom and endurance before taking your drama and baggage to another house of worship.

God’s purpose can’t be birthed in you if you’re full of confusion, unforgivenss and strife. IJS

Peace and Blessings Always!!!  TTYL

New Year 2018…….

Hello My CyberPeeps and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!  This is day four of the New Year and I’m stopping in briefly to check on you guys.  I hope and pray you are using this time, the beginning of the year to seriously seek God for your purpose and renewing your relationship with Him.  It seems most people and churches have some sort of fasting and consecration during the month of January….which I think is a grand thing if you are using this time wisely, for spiritual renewal.  There is no greater feeling than entering a new year seeking God for your life’s plan or continued direction.  For me the plans from last year don’t cease to exist, I don’t start all over but it carries over to this year….building blocks to greater.  Reviewing what went well or didn’t; what should I have done but didn’t, etc etc.  But the main thing is…did I do God’s will…share His love and message of redemption….hmmmm

So whether you commit to fasting and consecration for days, weeks, or the whole month..make it worth your spiritual time.  I know I will have a blessed and prosperous year regardless of what happens if I stay in God’s will..keeping my eyes, ears and mind on God because with Him I can never fail.

TTYL…Be Blessed in God!!